I am the child

I Am the Child



I am the child who cannot talk.
You often pity me, I see it in your eyes.
You wonder how much I am aware of - I see that as well.
I am aware of much - whether you are happy or sad or fearful,
patient or impatient, full of love and desire,
or if you are just doing your duty by me.
I marvel at your frustration, knowing mine to be far greater,
for I cannot express myself or my needs as you do.

You cannot conceive my isolation, so complete it is at times.
I do not gift you with clever conversation, cute remarks to be laughed over and repeated.
I do not give you answers to your everyday questions, responses over my well-being, sharing my needs, or comments about the world about me.
I do not give you rewards as defined by the world's standards -
great strides in development that you can credit yourself.
I do not give you understanding as you know it.

What I give you is so much more valuable - I give you instead opportunities.
Opportunities to discover the depth of your character, not mine;
the depth of your love, your commitment, your patience, your abilities;
the opportunity to explore your spirit more deeply than you imagined possible.
I drive you further than you would ever go on your own,
working harder, seeking answers to your many questions with no answers.
I am the child who cannot talk.

I am the child who cannot walk.
The world seems to pass me by.
You see the longing in my eyes to get out of this chair,
to run and play like other children.
There is much you take for granted.
I want the toys on the shelf, I need to go to the bathroom, oh I've dropped my fork again.
I am dependant on you in these ways.
My gift to you is to make you more aware of your great fortune,
your healthy back and legs, your ability to do for yourself.
Sometimes people appear not to notice me; I always notice them.
I feel not so much envy as desire, desire to stand upright,
to put one foot in front of the other, to be independent.
I give you awareness.
I am the child who cannot walk.

I am the child who is mentally impaired.
I don't learn easily, if you judge me by the world's measuring stick,
what I do know is infinite joy in simple things.
I am not burdened as you are with the strifes and conflicts of a more complicated life.
My gift to you is to grant you the freedom to enjoy things as a child,
to teach you how much your arms around me mean,
to give you love.
I give you the gift of simplicity.
I am the child who is mentally impaired.

I am the disabled child.
I am your teacher.
If you allow me, I will teach you what is really important in life.
I will give you and teach you unconditional love.
I gift you with my innocent trust, my dependency upon you.
I teach you about how precious this life is and about not taking things for granted.
I teach you about forgetting your own needs and desires and dreams.
I teach you giving.
Most of all I teach you hope and faith.
I am the disabled child.

- Author Unknown



I have been blessed by knowing and being a part of many of these childrens's lives. These past few months I have been on a journey with one in particular. She has thought to keep the faith. That when someone says I don't know what we are going to do or shakes their head and says we have few options left you stand firm on the word of God and let Him show the way. There are always more options, some that are unknown to unknow to us. That being on the top of the neurologist list is not really a bad thing, that trying something hair brianed may be a good thing. Don't let someone tell you that you can't do that or they will never learn that for they do not always have the answers. one of these children has learned to show love. She seeks out hugs and kisses, she hugs back and blows kisses. She looks with love in her heart into my eyes. She plays with her dolls and pretends to clean, she washes her face and hands with a cloth. She can throw a ball, she can swing in her swing by herself. Now you may think so what well let me tell you 1 and half years ago this child was labeled profoundly autistic, she was not aware that others were in a room. she paced in the same pace over and over all day stiming on a rattle. Today she seeks out and gives me hugs. God is Good.

Judgement

Poem : Do Not Judge Too Hard
By Georgy


Pray don’t find fault with the man who limps
Or stumbles along the road
Unless you have worn the shoes that hurt
Or struggled beneath his load
There may be tacks in his shoes that hurt,
Though hidden away from view
Or the burden he bears, placed on your back,
Might cause you to stumble, too.

Don’t sneer at the man who’s down today
Unless you have felt the blow
That caused his fall, or felt the same
That only the fallen know.
You may be strong, but still the blows
That were his, if dealt to you
In the self same way at the self same time,
Might cause you to stagger, too.

Don’t be too harsh with the man who sins
Or pelt him with words or stones,
Unless you are sure, yea, doubly sure,
That you have no sins of your own.
For you know perhaps, if the tempters voice
Should whisper as soft to you
As it did to him when he went astray,
‘Twould cause you to falter, too.

Do not Judge

Matthew 7 (New King James Version)

Matthew 7
Do Not Judge
1 “Judge not, that you be not judged. 2 For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you. 3 And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? 4 Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me remove the speck from your eye’; and look, a plank is in your own eye? 5 Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.
6 “Do not give what is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.
Keep Asking, Seeking, Knocking

7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 9 Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? 11 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! 12 Therefore, whatever you want men to do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.
The Narrow Way

13 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because[a] narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
You Will Know Them by Their Fruits

15 “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. 16 You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? 17 Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Therefore by their fruits you will know them.
I Never Knew You

21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
Build on the Rock

24 “Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: 25 and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.
26 “But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: 27 and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.”
28 And so it was, when Jesus had ended these sayings, that the people were astonished at His teaching, 29 for He taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.


I have been judged and falsely so. The results of someone making a judgement based on someone else's slander scheme have made an impact on my life that I am not happy about and I am stuggling with anger and disappointment. I saw things in print today that shocked me. Funny part was I was already supposed to know those things.

The flesh in me is struggling, I am very angry and sad. I don't understand why this is happening but trusting in God. I so want to judge those who have judged me but that would be wrong, so I guess the only thing to do is pray. I pray for forgiveness for the anger in my heart, for the judgement that I want to make, I fight it, but it is no more right for me to judge than I was judged. I pray for the truth to set me free. I know God can make all things happen, for it is through Him that all things are possible.


These verses came at such a perfect time. I think we all can use the reminder. This probably makes no since to anyone but that doesn't matter, I know what is happening and so does God and that is all that matters.

I challenge you to not judge others by what you see on the outside, or what someone else may say about them, for unless you see it for yourself it is probably not true.

Shaloam

Don't ya just love

How someone can know who you are and what you are capable of after spending less than 1 hour with you.

How someone can tell you what a wonderful person you are after spending less than 2 hours with you and make life alter decisions regarding your life.

How someone can read a few lines on paper that are not true and make life altering decisions.

How someone can look at your life and tell you to be grateful for what you have and forget what the Lord has shown you.

How someone who is supposed to be protecting a young cub places it in danger of life long consequences.

How someone can think they and God are in control of life altering choices.



This month by life was turned upside down by someone who made a judgement, and someone read it and someone else made life altering decisions.Thank God I don't depend on someone or serve someone. Thank God someone is not in control of my life. I am so grateful for my blind faith in the Lord and I know that He keeps His promises. He is all knowing all seeing. He is in control, not me nor someone. He alone can make thing happens with out someone, or anyone's help. Praise God that I am His child and He alone is........

He will bring ya through it

One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief,
was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life
this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought
about those who had lied about him back when he had a
job.

His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things
and cheated him. He remembered family who had passed on.
His mind turned to the illness he had, that no one could
cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment,
and frustration.

Standing there this day, searching for answers he could
not find, knowing all else had failed him, he knelt at
the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would
always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed:

'Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this
life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I
happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am
sad, Lord, because I cannot. I don't know how. It is not
fair Lord, I didn't deserve these wrongs that were done
against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as
your way is Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I
don't know how to forgive. My anger is so deep Lord, I
fear I may not hear you, but I pray you teach me to do
the one thing I cannot do: Teach me to forgive .'

As he knelt there in the quiet shade of that old oak
tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He opened
his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something
red on his shirt. He could not turn to see what it was
because where the oak tree had been was a large square
piece of wood in the ground. He raised his head and saw
two feet held to the wood with a large spike through
them.

He raised his head more, and tears came to his eyes as
he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in His
hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep
thorns sunk into His head. Finally he saw the suffering
and pain on His precious face. As their eyes met, the
man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak.

'Have you ever told a lie?' He asked?

The man answered - 'Yes, Lord...'

'Have you ever been given too much change and kept it?'

The man answered - 'Yes, Lord..' And the man sobbed more
and more.

'Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't
yours?' Jesus asked?

And the man answered, 'Yes, Lord.'

'Have you ever sworn, using my Father's name in vain?'

The man, crying now, answered - 'Yes, Lord.'

As Jesus asked many more times, 'Have you ever'? The
man's crying became uncontrollable, for he could only
answer - 'Yes, Lord'.

Then Jesus turned His head from one side to the other,
and the man felt something fall on his other shoulder He
looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he
looked back up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there
was a look of love the man had never seen or known
before.

Jesus said, 'I didn't deserve this either, but I forgive
you.'

It may be hard to see how you're going to get through
something, but when you look back in life, you realize
how true this statement is.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you!



I got this in an email today, I don't thought it was a very good reminder of His love. I can always use a reminder.
Blessings

Woot Woot

We are trying a new treatment for Belle's seizures, I am excited to say it is working. The doctor said I would notice improvement soon but I had no idea how soon. We were back at the cities last week for an overnight EEG and I am proud to say her EEG matched what I was seeing. The doctor even went on to say that there were segments of her EEG at night that if you just plucked those out you would say it was normal. What my daughter has some normal brain waves? Woot Woot!! I am so excited. She is laughing and playing with toys, it is so fun to see her personality emerging again. It is hard to watch them be robbed of their joy, but it is such a blessing to see it come back. I can not wait to see what unfolds for her. It is like watching a flower unfold, or a butterfly emerge from it's cocoon. Only God knows what she will look like when she emerges. Now if we can just get potty training down,lol.
Praise God!

Daily Bible verse

This is the verse that was given me today:

He who guards his mouth preserves his life, But he who opens wide his lips shall have destruction.

Proverbs 13:3 (New King James Version)


I must ponder this one in more depth.
Blessings